Sunday, January 19, 2020

Life Lately: The 3rd Trimester,

These photos were taken throughout this last trimester.
I'm currently 38 weeks and had intended to post weekly during this pregnancy....but life took over and I'm lucky that I even got to sit down tonight and just write a little. I've also come to the realization that I will never be on time for anything lol....even blog posts. I'm just not an on-time kinda gal and now that I have's only gotten worse! I guess there could be worse things to be known for.
The holidays are over and soon as they ended, I started feeling VERY unprepared. I kept telling myself that I had time still but between work and gym prep, kids (who just got over being sick) and the regular daily duties....time just got away from me! So here I am at 38 weeks, scrambling to get it all done!! My car seat literally came in today! Smh.
Last week, I was lying comfortably in my bed and thinking about how exhausting and tired I was with a newborn when I had Scarlett and Maxwell. It was literally the hardest part of motherhood for me. The no sleep in the beginning was really rough both times and I was NOT prepared for it. Even with Maxwell, who slept pretty good after the first month or so, I was a zombie the first few weeks. A few friends, acquaintances and a slew of instagrammers swear by the Snoo bassinet and rave about how amazing it works. In my panic, thinking about all that needs to be done in the next few months to come, I made a midnight decision to return the Halo and get the Snoo.  So I am currently waiting on that as well. I don't have a nursery set up for baby girl. In our house, the master suite is on the first floor. The extra bedroom upstairs is currently the guest bedroom. Between not wanting to run upstairs everytime the baby cries and the fact that I like having a guest room, I just haven't made a decision on where her room will be. For now, she will sleep in our room. And so her washed clothes are in baskets in my bedroom. I kind of laugh because it is true that with your first, you have it all prepared months in advance. The second, a little more laid back and by the third, you just wing it and say,
Ah, it'll be fine! Eventually she will have a room and clothes organized....smh.

5 strangers this week have randomly stopped me to tell me that I am having a boy. To which I smile and say, "Nope, it's a girl". Apparently I carry all of my babies like "a boy". Whatever that means.
The past couple of weeks I have had quite a bit of pain. So many things I didn't experience with the other two, I am did this one. Which means there is no predicting or assuming anything when it comes to babies! She moves SO much! Scarlett definitely moved more than Maxwell but this one moves more than both of them combined! So much so that she often hurts me. I get nervous that she is doing somersaults in there and tangling cords! lol. As she gets bigger, it gets worse. A lot of pressure and just walking around like I just got off a horse! ha. She dropped this week and I am feeling that.
I am nesting like a crazy person this weekend. And unlike most of the time when I feel like I'm doin something nonstop but nothing gets done, this weekend things are getting done! I hired a cleaning service. Periodically I will hire someone to clean the house when I just don't have time. We put the carseat in the car and packed bags. I'm TRYING to arrange for someone to be here with kids for when I do go into labor. Not a fun task when your entire family lives across the country. But we'll figure it out. I've got enough clothes for now. I think we have everything we need for the newborn stage....but wow! I forgot how much you need for a new baby!! We gave everything away when we moved here to TX so we were starting from square one again and every little bit helped.  SO THANK YOU TO EVERYONE who sent us gifts for baby girl. It meant a great deal to me! My work crew is amazing & sent me such a generous gift! And Kalin, Mom, Shauna...Thank you!! We really appreciate it! Even a couple Texas friends blessed us with some things. 

The end is near for my last pregnancy and it's bittersweet for me. I know I said this very same thing with Maxwell....ha ha but I felt a little different back then. I always had this feeling deep down that there would be 3. A girl actually. And now that she is almost here, I feel that I am 100% complete in the motherhood dept. It's just a different feeling for me. I have always felt that I am quite intuitive. I can pick up on whether I like someone or not within 15 min of meeting someone. I knew what each of my kids would be. When I pictured my kids in my head, it was girl, then a boy and then another girl. To be honest, if I had easy pregnancies, I prob would have had 4, another girl. But I DO NOT and with this being my hardest, it's safe to say that I'm feeling complete.
I am beyond excited to meet this new baby that is so lively. I'm  excited to share her name and see what she will look like!! I'm also getting nervous. Not about having a newborn in general....that I feel a little bit experienced with by now. But more with having a newborn WITH 2 other kids to take care of and a business starting all at the same time. Things have a way of working out though. They always do. So I just trust in God that the timing of everything was not in my control and that there is a reason, a season and that it will all flow together in the end. I'm really feeling quite blessed and very thankful for another healthy pregnancy. There were definitely hard times on this journey but still so much to be thankful for still.   See you soon my sweet little baby girl......<3

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