It's a funny thing really.
Often, I forget that things happen in good time. I forget that God is really in control and that just because my expectations are set on something, it doesn't mean that it is for the best. I can't always see the whole picture.
This is not an easy feat for someone like me, who lives by my calendar and who wants to have control over every aspect of my life. Not even feasible, I know. But still I try. I am easily discouraged if things don't pan out how I imagined they would. As I've written about before, I have been job searching and things weren't happening....well, at all really. I really wasn't keen on having Scarlett in school full time at 2 1/2 years old anyway. What I couldn't see while I was getting turned down for full time jobs and positions that I thought I really wanted, was that there were better plans in store for me. I couldn't see that the timing wasn't right.
A couple of weeks ago, when I was feeling down and out about a not getting a call back from a job I pursued, I had no idea what this new week would offer. Someone, somewhere, knew my needs and somehow....they were perfectly met. Although I have been searching for full time work, I was very skeptical of being away from Scarlett so much. I wanted to work but seeing Scarlett only a couple of hours a day was almost to much to think about. I know many mothers do this and it works. For me, right now, it didn't feel right. Not yet anyhow.
This past week, I went on yet another job interview. After hearing about the job and what it had to offer, I was very interested. Although it was only 3 days a week, it was great pay (which made up for it being only part time), great hours, benefits and bonus'. It was more than I could ask for. I couldn't bring myself to get excited. It seemed too good to be true. A couple of hours after the interview, they sent me an email offering me the position. Hallelujah!!! I will be working 3 days a week. The other 2 day I will get to stay home with Scarlett!! Eventually it will turn into a full-time position, but that is down the road. This is a great way for me to ease back into work. I have an office in a suite downtown and I will be working with people that seem so nice and accommodating. I'm over the moon with how things have worked out....as they always do. A little patience and faith was all I really needed. I felt the stress melt off of me instantly. I even did a "happy dance" in the middle of the parking lot when I got the email. Ha.
It's a funny thing really.
Things don't always happen when we wish them to. Sometimes we need to put aside our eager needs and practice patience. Something I am still learning to use. Something that is truly hard to swallow in the moment but always makes sense in hindsight.