Friday, May 17, 2013

Dear Ty.

"Over The Love"

By: Lauren Hutchinson
Copyright © 2013


Dear Ty,


Drowning....


I sometimes feel like that about my life before I met you.
Those days were hard,
Tearful.

I felt as though I was drunk, spinning around wildly with no intention of stopping. Every turn taking me further away from the light.
Bitter and angry.
Not knowing how I had gotten to that place.

I think I asked God a million times why?
I think I prayed a thousand times for it to go away.
Drowning.
It's a word I use often when I describe that time in my life.

It felt that way.

Like no matter how hard I tried, the water kept hitting my face and pushing me down.
Like I couldn't catch my breath.
Like the more I struggled to reach the top for a breath of air, the faster I sank.
I couldn't hold on, so I began to just...let go....
Free falling down into that murky water.
I watched myself fade...


And just as I felt I was about to hit the bottom, just when I had given up hope, just as I was about to close my heart for good,
two strong arms reached down and pulled me up.
They wrapped around me and held my cold, half-damaged body against theirs.
I opened my eyes,

And there you were.
The answer to my every prayer.
What I had been unknowingly searching for for years.

I know it seems rather dramatic to say that you saved me. 



But truly, you saved me.


I find it completely surreal to think that we found each other in this chaotic, mess of a world.
But I know there was help in bringing us together.
With every choice bringing us in a different direction, I realize that all of the bad things that have come my way, no longer matter. Those difficult times swung me around like a rag doll, not caring if I was on my knees already.

Dear Ty, my lover, my rescuer, my heart, my everything.
I want you more than I have ever wanted anything.

The love I feel for you makes my heart beat faster every time I think of our first kiss.
It makes me burn with passion when I think of you telling me you'd wait forever.
It fills my eyes with tears when I think how you unconditionally love me....

This IS the love of a lifetime. I'm so in love still.
The best part is, I know you are here to stay...the day is coming quickly. I'm savoring how I feel in this moment. And yet, I know the best is yet to come.

.............................6/21/2013 










Links:
Carissa Graham
Covered In Grace

7 comments:

  1. Oh Lauren...this is amazing and I am soo glad for what you have found in Ty. At this time in my world so much is changing and a part of my heart can't wait until I can say this about the next wonderful man who will enter my life. You inspire me, and help me to remember that all will be well.

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. Thank you Shannon!! Sometimes I wonder if sharing my writing is right or if I should keep it for myself but when I get comments like these, I know that sharing is the right choice. XOXO

      Delete
  2. Beautiful and so real and touching. Ty is a lucky man! Xoxox

    ReplyDelete
  3. Very moving and wonderfully written. You have a wonderful tone, so glad I found your blog! Following you now :)

    http://thebees3.blogspot.com/

    ReplyDelete
    Replies
    1. thank you!! I am going to go stop by your blog now :)

      Delete
  4. This is so touching and beautiful!
    I am now following you via bloglovin and GFC. I am so glad I found your blog and can't wait to read more beautiful things from you.

    xo
    Christina
    pieceitalltogetherx3.blogspot.com

    ReplyDelete

Thank you for all your comments & kind words!! I reply in the comments section so check back if you have a question :) xo